I struggle with these same things as I'm sure many of you do too - I found this post on
"The Rebelution" (a great blog that you need to check out!!!). I have problems and struggles with feeling like I'm fat - but appearance really doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things! :) Hope this post is an encouragement to you as well!
"I struggle a lot with feeling ugly.
Every day I am surrounded by posters and advertisements that remind
me that my skin is broken out, or my thighs are too big, etc. These
posters convince me that perfection is the norm and cause me to
constantly compare myself to others to see how I measure up.
I struggle a lot with caring about my appearance.
I know that my focus is supposed to be on Christ. I know my body is
merely temporal, imperfect, daily dying. I know that God is supposed to
be my refuge, rest, and strength.
But it is easy to be distracted by how I look.
For several years, I’ve been convinced that my acne is all people
notice about me. Sometimes, when I talked, I caught people looking at a
spot on my face that I knew wasn’t my eyes or my mouth. Other times
(including just a few days ago), for a whole week I will be given tips
and hints about how to get rid of my acne (in just 10 days!) by
neighbors, acquaintances, and random strangers.
Times like these really discourage me. These reminders that I am not
beautiful, that I am not attractive, that my acne distracts from who I
really am crush me. People noticing and pointing out my acne convince me
that my face is all I will ever be – convince me even that I am not
useful in drawing attention to Christ because people will only see my
blemishes.
I’ve heard all the messages about “looking to your inner beauty” and “appreciating who you are,” but they don’t help.
Inside, I’m not beautiful either. My soul is blemished too. Both my
inside and my outside seem unworthy of Christ’s or any other’s
attention.
All I can see is my ugliness. All I can see is my need for my Savior.
This past week, completely discouraged by the constant attention my
acne received, I went to my room and cried out to God. I told Him how I
was tired of caring. I told Him I was tired of being ugly. I told Him
that I felt all people saw when they looked at me was acne. And I
waited.
I have given you an unblemished soul.
He turned my heart to gratitude. I thanked Him that He does not see
acne when He looks at me, that He does not see the much deeper, uglier
blemishes of sin that often hurt and people notice. Because of Him, I
have a snowy fresh soul because He was willing to forgive me and bear
the consequences of my sin.
He died to give my soul a clean complexion!
When my heart wanted to dwell on the temporal, Jesus turned my eyes
to the eternal realities that will never change – His love, His
sacrifice, and the assurance He gives me of salvation.
For the first time in my life, I was grateful for my acne.
When I wouldn’t run to God as my rest and refuge because I knew it
was right, my worries about acne and my appearance drove me to His
presence for comfort.
And at His feet, I found comfort. Comfort, not that I was “truly
beautiful within,” or that I somehow met up with worldly standards, but
the assurance that Jesus Christ holds and loves my soul, and that He
died to clear it of its imperfections.
Jesus Christ lives in and through me today, and He wants to use me to
minister to the people around me. He loves me, guides me, and walks
with me through all my troubles. He promises me a future and a hope, not
just here on earth but especially in heaven. And He wants to have this
relationship with the people that I meet every day.
When my focus is on people seeing Christ, not on seeing me, I forget
my self consciousness, and I am given opportunities to share the gospel.
People will begin to ask, “Why are you so confident?”
What will I answer?
“Because I am on this program that will get my face clear in UNDER 10 DAYS!”
“Because my inner beauty shines through and that’s enough for me,”
Or,
“Because Jesus Christ is my anchor and my support, and He has saved
me from all of my sin. My confidence and my hope is in Him alone.”
Only one of those answers will take others’ focus off of me and onto
Christ, to whom belongs ALL the glory and ALL the honor, and ALL the
praise.
So the next time you find yourself looking in the mirror with tears
in your eyes, leave it, go someplace you will be alone, and pour out
your heart to God. He sees the true feelings of your heart, so don’t
feel like you can’t share them with Him.
Trust Him to be your comfort and your sweet support. Trust Him to
walk with you through every trial – even this one. Praise the God who
cares for the little things. Little things like me. Little things like
you.
Believe it or not, your acne, and how you respond, could open the
door for you to introduce someone to our glorious Lord and Savior!"
“How beautiful are the arms that have embraced Christ,
the hands which have touched Christ, the eyes which have gazed upon
Christ, the lips which have spoken with Christ, the feet which have
followed Christ. How beautiful are the hands which have worked the works
of Christ, the feet which treading in His footsteps have gone about
doing good, the lips that have spread abroad His name, the lives which
have been counted loss for Him.” – Christina Rossetti.
“If any soul has any beauty, it is because Christ has endowed that
soul with His own, for in ourselves we are deformed and defiled! There
is no beauty in any of us but what our Lord has worked in us.” – C.H.
Spurgeon